What are you doing what are you doing what are you doing<\/p>\n
Are you thinking about me?<\/p>\n
No<\/p>\n
And that’s normal<\/p>\n
And you shouldn’t<\/p>\n
You’re far away<\/p>\n
From everything<\/p>\n
From me<\/p>\n
You’re far away<\/p>\n
You are so far away<\/p>\n
From you<\/p>\n
From everything<\/p>\n
You left<\/p>\n
Somewhere else<\/p>\n
I should let you go<\/p>\n
You don’t want to go<\/p>\n
I don’t want to go either<\/p>\n
From you<\/p>\n
I do not want to go<\/p>\n
Anywhere<\/p>\n
I would sleep with you forever<\/p>\n
In that messy room of yours<\/p>\n
I would kiss you forever<\/p>\n
And let you bug me in the morning<\/p>\n
Filming you as you dance<\/p>\n
And I need to let you go<\/p>\n
I can not<\/p>\n
I can not do anything anymore, trust me<\/p>\n
I’m half without you<\/p>\n
I’m not whole anymore<\/p>\n
I’m nothing anymore<\/p>\n
Because you’re not here<\/p>\n
You are standing next to me<\/p>\n
But you’re not here<\/p>\n
You’re far away<\/p>\n
And I don’t know how to reach you<\/p>\n
I succeed at times<\/p>\n
And then you smile at me in the way, the most beautiful way, the most tender way, in the way as you see me and I really stand in front of you<\/p>\n
But then you leave<\/p>\n
You leave right away<\/p>\n
You sail away<\/p>\n
You get lost<\/p>\n
You’re somewhere<\/p>\n
Far away<\/p>\n
Far away<\/p>\n
I’m silent all day today<\/p>\n
I’m silent<\/p>\n
I do not think<\/p>\n
And you are in my mind<\/p>\n
I do not speak<\/p>\n
And you are on my lips<\/p>\n
I’m not functioning<\/p>\n
And you are in my heart<\/p>\n
You will not return<\/p>\n
Never again, to me<\/p>\n
To smile at me and hug me and tell me<\/p>\n
Honey bunny<\/span><\/p>\n as you use to say<\/span><\/p>\n And I need to let it all go<\/p>\n To leave<\/p>\n To go away<\/p>\n Where to go<\/p>\n Where am I going<\/p>\n Who will make me laugh<\/p>\n Who will calm me down<\/p>\n Who will love me<\/p>\n Who<\/p>\n How can I leave you<\/p>\n How I would love for you to look at me<\/p>\n How very much<\/p>\n To hug me<\/p>\n And not let me go after 5 minutes<\/p>\n To never let me go again<\/p>\n Like you let me go now<\/p>\n You leave<\/p>\n And you let be me alone<\/p>\n Alone<\/p>\n And you don’t care anymore<\/p>\n Does anyone approach me<\/p>\n What others tell me<\/p>\n You don’t care about anything<\/p>\n You left me<\/p>\n And you are standing next to me<\/p>\n And I need to let you go<\/p>\n How can I let you go<\/p>\n With what can I let you go<\/p>\n When my heart is with you<\/p>\n I say things<\/p>\n And I know they bother you<\/p>\n I feel like I bother you sometimes<\/p>\n And I don’t like that<\/p>\n I feel like I’m bothering someone<\/p>\n I can’t be calm<\/p>\n Patience often betrays me<\/p>\n I’m trying<\/p>\n I’m making mistakes<\/p>\n And I don’t want to be wrong with you<\/p>\n I don’t know how to fix it<\/p>\n I spin in a circle and dig myself a hole<\/p>\n I’m afraid to admit that I love you<\/p>\n I mix feelings<\/p>\n I prove myself unnecessarily<\/p>\n I’m making up ways not to think about you<\/p>\n I make up people not to think of you<\/p>\n And I fail<\/p>\n Everyone is less important<\/p>\n Everyone is less fun<\/p>\n Everyone is less you than you<\/p>\n I’m less with everyone than I am with you<\/p>\n I need to let you go<\/p>\n I see that<\/p>\n I need to crush myself to pieces and gather myself<\/p>\n I need to break everything I feel<\/p>\n I throw as if it is unnecessary<\/p>\n And irrelevant<\/p>\n Somewhere far away to discard it all<\/p>\n And to pretend I don’t care<\/p>\n That I am indifferent<\/p>\n My whole life I pretend<\/p>\n That I’m smart<\/p>\n Pretty<\/p>\n to know things<\/p>\n that I don’t care<\/p>\n that I’m good<\/p>\n And no, it’s all a mask, I’m under it, the one who is boring and grumpy and likes to be alone and can’t behave<\/p>\n I’m under it<\/p>\n Who loves you no matter what<\/p>\n Who can’t say no<\/p>\n Who doesn’t care what you do wrong and who adores you even when you are everything you shouldn’t be<\/p>\n Who loves you immensely<\/p>\n Who always needs you<\/p>\n Who always miss you<\/p>\n Who would give birth to your children no matter what you say<\/p>\n Who might change her last name<\/p>\n Who is not complete<\/p>\n Who is only half<\/p>\n Who is whole because she loves you<\/p>\n And now she needs to leave you<\/p>\n And be<\/p>\n Nothing<\/p>\n To be nothing<\/p>\n Parts bits glass pieces<\/p>\n Throw away feelings<\/p>\n Dropped<\/p>\n All discarded<\/p>\n Today without you<\/p>\n Tomorrow without you<\/p>\n A mosaic to be assembled from me eventually<\/p>\n To let you go\u2026<\/p>\n I can’t let you go, I didn’t get that part with the instructions for you, no one has explained that part yet as it should\u2026 why\u2026 and how\u2026 and why on earth why\u2026<\/p>\n To leave everything I got with you\u2026<\/p>\n Where does it say that?<\/p>\n On the Internet? In the newspapers? Who can tell me that?<\/p>\n Although, that’s what your look tells me when you look through me, your lips when they kiss through me\u2026<\/p>\n that’s what you say when you’re standing next to me and you’re not there<\/p>\n when you don’t beg me to hold you, a little more, just a little bit more little more little to hold you next to me, just a little give me just a little please to sleep next to your lips, to wake up next to you, just a little more please\u2026<\/p>\n to hug you, to feel you, to make you smile at me, just a little more when I could get, when I could never let you go\u2026<\/p>\n I will never let you go\u2026<\/p>\n Never\u2026<\/p>\n Never<\/p>\n I can’t let you go\u2026<\/p>\n Can you forgive me?<\/p>\n Can I forgive myself if I never let you go?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" What are you doing what are you doing what are you doing Are you thinking about me? 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